¡Mi lucha, Mi pulpito, Mi blog!
Since I was 14, I have felt and wrestled with the call to ministry, specifically ordained ministry. This journey took me down an interesting journey of visiting various religious communities including the Franciscans, the Legionaries of Christ, Lumen Dei…it was my version of dating and was a discernment to find my place in the Catholic world. I ultimately did enter the seminary with the Jesuits in the Dominican Republic but left after a year I realized that it was not the place where I could serve G-d with all of me.
Though I still honor my Roman Catholic roots and feel the call to ordained ministry, as an out queer person the church I love will not embrace me, especially as a clergy person. And so, I finished my studies in social work and eventually would apply to divinity school (on a whim) to see if G-d and I could sort out the yearning to serve the church and the world. I was accepted to both Harvard and Yale, ultimately choosing to enroll at Yale Divinity School in order to sort out of place within or beyond Christianity. Though my intention was to pursue ordination in another tradition, initially the Episcopal Church, I came to re-embrace and reaffirm my Catholic identity. It was in a Protestant institution with Congregational roots that I became proud to be Catholic discovering aspects and parts of my faith I did not know existed—inclusive history, transformative theology, all embracing liturgy, expansive tradition that had been neglected, hidden, forgotten. Though I finished my Master in Divinity open to the possibility of a finding a vocational home in another tradition, I left Yale with a passion and chispa (spark) for Catholicism—a Catholicism that lifted up human experience and the entire human person as a places for divine revelation and of theologizing beyond the norm.
G-d has graced me with many funky opportunities to do incredible things—service trips to New Orleans, advocacy with Soulforce and GetEQUAL, mission trips to El Salvador, speaking at conferences on the intersections of sexuality and faith, writing for different organizations and blogs—through it all getting to know amazing individuals who are all living out the call to be a microphone for G-d in unique, radical, and faith-filled ways. One of the things I discovered along the way was a passion for homiletics—a way of reclaiming and re-membering my voice. Who would have thought this heretical, Catholic, Latin@, trans, queer person would fall in love with preaching, especially after being raised in a tradition where only male priests were allowed to give homilies??? G-d does have a quirky sense of humor when it comes to ministry and here I am starting a blog.
Because I cannot seek ordination at this time and because institutional church settings are painful for me—I was inspired to start this blog as a way of redefining the pulpit. This blog will be my pulpit, a place to share homilies, sermonettes, reflections, rants and raves. The queerful predicas (homiliy/sermon) I post will be based on random biblical passages, videos and images, current events, lectionary texts…some short and some long-winded…some only text, some mixed with other media, some within liturgies. Things will vary as I experiment with different homiletic styles. Where this adventure will take us, who knows??!! I trust the Spirit and how She will use this blogging pulpit.
Inspired by Call To Action’s commemoration campaign honoring the 50th Anniversary of Vatican II and the transformation the church experienced, I too am opening the doors and windows to allow the Spirit to move in and through me through this blog—to share my journey, my reflections, my lucha (struggle), my chutzpah…inviting others to share their journeys, reflections, luchas, and chutzpah….so that together we live into and become church.