i am good enough, mental health quirks and all

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i am good enough, mental health quirks and all

In honor of all those living with mental health issues, a poem by me…

i am clinically depressed,
society diagnoses me to the margin.
more so than being transgender or a Catholic heretic,
the socialized stigma of “defective sicko” has blocked my path.
my depressive episodes and resilient oomphs to re-member by spirit
are symptomized as worthless …
why?
because of untempered misunderstandings of depression that blame me.
i am told:
“pull yourself up by the bootstraps of pill-popping”
“just pray”
i am treated with well-intentioned yet mocking quips of “you’ll be okay”.
but hell the f*** NO!!!
my divine chutzpah drives me to love myself  beyond misappropriated categories.
i do not murder the reminders of my suffering … I lean into them.
i am more than a WASPy therapist’s DSM classification.
i’m screwed up but damnit, i’m a person.
the words to my now are: undoing, redoing, lucha
i queerify definitions.
my life is the evidence seen and unseen…
i am good enough, period.  Amen, blessed be!

featured image from:  http://www.namifoxvalley.org/blog/2013/04/24/111/

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About delfinwaldemar

i am a native of miami, fl and i am of cuban and salvadoran heritage. i am a social worker and queer theologian who is passionate about engaging the intersections of religion, sexuality, race/ethnicity, and justice—specifically around lgbtq issues. i have a master in divinity as well as a master of social work. as an activist scholar of faith, i am interested in creating spaces where individuals and communities are safe and challenged to explore identity, expression, gender, and orientation in their complexities. i enjoy cooking, eating, laughing, writing, photography, eating more, “queerying” theology, and spending time with family and friends--especially my dearly beloved (while also driving him crazy). my approach to life is rooted in la lucha (the struggle)—lifting up our stories and experiences to inspire creative and authentic conversations and actions that thrive outside boxes transgressing dominant narratives. i hope this space will provide folks who feel isolated or disconnected from communities, especially religious one, an opportunity to wrestle and reconnect and re-member and simply be with the sacred. being raised roman catholic, i have felt marginalized and alone because of who i am within my church community--my queerness bars me from being able to pursue ordination and so this blog will be a space for me to share my journey of faith through homilies, pictures, liturgies, rants, queeries...my prayer is that this space become a pulpit and sanctuary, a new way of living into our call to radical holiness juntos...a place where you, me, G-d will caminar juntos y juntas en la lucha. Amen.

One response »

  1. Delfin –
    You are indeed good enough – and a bit more besides! I wish you a new year of kindness and appreciation.

    Love to you –
    Jane

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